This is my quote of the night. Never keep a secret from your children for it will devestate them more if they dont hear it from mommy or daddy

well this may be a great begining

I am starting this blog because in my opinion, something tragic was told to me. I'm not going to tell you exactly what this tragic thing is. because of the fact that this is my first blog and i need to vent. i was told something today that made me cry, and here i am one in the morning still crying. this is something even facebook can't cheer me up from. something so dramatic that i even considered becoming an alcoholic, only for a second. this is my first blog and it will be about my life. anyone interested in it that would be pretty much freakin amazing. but then again,. i don't know why you'd be creepin online reading peoples blogs  :d   joking guys. okay. i'm eighteen. i live with my mommy and let's face it, i probably with for the rest of my life. haha, no actualy that isn't a haha moment because it wasn't a joke :D okay back to my boring life story. I have two brothers, zach and kane. we all look like our father. big deal rite.?.  i love my parents TO DEATH and all three of us kids think they should totally get back together again.  everyone knows daddy loves mommy still :D okay. i have a puppy named buck, i recently started calling him buckshit. i think im funnier then i actually am. I sing in the car along with the radio. I work at a nursing home, dun dun dun...the night shift. this blog is getting kind of long huh?  oh well like i said i need to vent. i've had five cars in two years. wow can you say get off the road woman????  yes i know. ANYWAYS I have a boyfriend. and i just didn't have anything to write after that sentence....  my bad  ...  love you baby :D   we been together since june blah blah blah. okay heres one sad part that makes me cry constantly. March fifth of this year I had a son, his name is William Thurlby Mainville. We recently buried him at a graveyard close to where my family is. I was five months pregnant, i went in for a checkup next thing i know BOOM  im going to saint mary's hospital, then i got induced and had my son. eight ounces he was. and the most perfect son i could have asked for. he had eyebrows!!!!!  EYEBROWS. being pregnant with him for those oh too short five months was the most amazing thing i've ever done!!! I felt in love, i felt happiness and joy and anticipation. now sadly enough im even scared to try again. but that may be because i want the rite guy to father my children. and maybe im scared of dying while pregnant since i did come within inches away from having a stroke that night. but that's enough about me!!!!!!  i'll leave you on edge....shooooot i act like this is even entertaining lol. night all!!! much love